Here we are with another topic for Marketing for Romance Writers 52-Week Blog Challenge.
Week 44: My Biggest Fear
Before I delve into this week’s topic, I have to say I had last week’s post written in draft but went on a day trip then forgot to get back to it upon my return. “But you had a whole week (or forty-four weeks) to write the post?” This is true, but when I’m in my book writing zone, the book is what I write—especially with two to finish.
The theme last week was: My Favorite Apps. One day I’ll complete the topic and put it up as a post, anyway.
Now, shall we get to this week’s topic?
I get fearful every time I send a book to my editor or before publishing a book. I don’t like flying because I’m fearful of crashing. My oldest boy lives three-thousand miles away. I fly white-knuckled a lot of the time. Other than that, I don’t talk too much about my fears.
I’ve overcome some of my fears only to fall back into them again. I bet I could overcome them again if I had to…like climbing the tallest lighthouse in my Great Lake State. It’s the bigger fears that make me totally numb where I can’t move. I’ve learned to depend on myself to save myself, and if I’m too fearful, how do I? Then what if I can’t?
However…it’s in my makeup to persevere. I depend on this, and prayer, to get me through my fears.
I have faced some of these fears and got through them. Will I again? I don’t want to find out.
You may ask why I bothered to write this post when I won’t tell my biggest fear(s). Well, I will reply by saying I don’t like to tell my fears when they can be used against me in certain circumstances.
Thanks for reading.
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Don’t turn your back upon your doctrinal doubts and difficulties. Go up to them and examine them. Perhaps the ghastly object which looks to you in the twilight like a sheeted ghost may prove to be no more than a table-cloth hanging upon a hedge. ~A.H. Boyd~ QuoteGarden
Mary J. McCoy-Dressel 
11 thoughts on “#MFRWauthor Week 44: Blog Challenge Theme Week”
Teagan R. Geneviene
Horsefeathers… Did I really miss this one too?
Mary, this is a simple, beautiful post. You are indeed a kindred spirit. It may as well have been me talking.
I’m really feeling like I’m falling back on old fears… but so many repressed fears have taken over my life in the past few years… it’s hard to know old from new.
I’m (virtually) standing at the top of that tallest lighthouse, giving a high five to the universe, with a jubilant shout. Yes, we can! And we *will*!
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Mary J. McCoy-Dressel
I’m sad you don’t see this on Twitter, either, because if you aren’t then no one else is. Same with my Facebook Author Page. Bah Humbug. Since that lighthouse, I have toured nearly all the lighthouses in my state and surrounding states. My state has the most! It’s always scary the first time I open the door at the top to step out, and it takes a minute.
I was really brave when I stood out on the observation deck at the Stratosphere Hotel in Las Vegas at over 800 feet tall. Yikes. Inside. The outside was closed due to 60 mph winds. I also went to the top of the Hancock Building in Chicago.
But there are other fears I just don’t think I can overcome. I like your jubilant shout. I will remember that. We will and we can!
You probably missed my last post from Saturday, too. I deleted it, so you won’t find it now.
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Teagan R. Geneviene
Mary, I hardly ever visit Twitter, so I don’t find anything through them. I barely have time to visit blogs and Facebook. The tweets I do are just quick and easy via the link on people’s blogs.
Now that WordPress is being a jerk and not automatically posting to FB, it’s just that much work.
They also botched the automated posting to LinkedIn. They stopped showing the post’s intro paragraph and now just show a title and pic. I have to go into my profile, find my post, and edit it to make it decent…
I remember you talking about visiting the lighthouses and how many there are. It’s marvelous.
Heights never bothered me — not usually anyway. Although at this point, agoraphobia might influence that too…
Great big hug.
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D. Wallace Peach
I think our biggest fears are often kept silent, Mary, as if giving them voice gives them more substance. But I’m like you and persevere. Often by facing our fears, we learn that they weren’t so scary after all. Keep hitting the publish button. 🙂
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Mary J. McCoy-Dressel
Oh, you sure are right about giving voice to our fears. Who wants to do that? Some of the fears are that scary though when faced. Shudders. 🙂 I plan to keep pushing Publish as long as I can. Thanks for reading.
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Maureen Bonatch
I’m none too fond of lighthouses either. Unfortunately it took my first time in one to remember that I was a bit claustrophobic and afraid of heights- not considering the lighthouse combined both of those! lol
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Mary J. McCoy-Dressel
Exactly, Maureen. I was okay inside and climbing, but it took quite a while of clinging to the exterior wall before I got the nerve to look over the side. Once I conquered the tallest, I figured I’d be good to do the others. 🙂
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henhousepublishing
It’s always nervewracking to send a manuscript to the editor. Agreed!
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Mary J. McCoy-Dressel
It’s kind of like standing in the front of the room giving a speech except an editor’s eyes are on our babies. 😱
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Helen Henderson
I agree with the publisher and editor comment. There is a person who scares me even more–a reviewer. good post.
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Mary J. McCoy-Dressel
Thanks for commenting, Helen. I’m in agreement.
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